I’ve been busy editing and adding pictures to my photography site. I am considering buying the domain name and self hosting instead of just having it at wordpress, just so it will have more of a professional feel to it. I love photography and I’m still learning. I just have a problem with low self esteem. The reason I haven’t actively sought out clients is because I don’t think I’m good enough at it. I have been told by several people (not all of them family) that I’m good, but I just don’t see it. I guess we are our biggest critics. My kids are in most of my photos for now and that’s just so I can perfect my technique. I mean my kids aren’t going to complain if the pics aren’t perfect. I am hoping one day I have the confidence to build it into a full fledged business.
And if you have any tips please feel free to disperse them to me LOL. I hate criticism but I realize that it is imperative if I want to improve.
Photography has been my passion for a few years now. I started off with just a little point and shoot and then moved up to a DSLR. I am still learning. Actually I think that photography is one of those things where there’s always something new to learn. However, I’ve learned that photography is not just about pointing a camera and taking pictures. Anyone can do that. It’s about having a vision of what you want to capture. I constantly take pictures with my mind. Then if I have a chance, I get my camera and try to capture what I saw in my head. It’s a lot harder than it sounds.
Recently I’ve let my competitiveness get the best of me though. I kinda gave up on photography because so many people around here have opened up photography businesses so I thought “What’s the use?” I doubt I’ll open up a business but I have got to stop letting that get in the way of doing something I love and that I feel I’m good at. I’m looking at upgrading my camera and getting a new lens. I am supposed to be doing some senior pics for Jake’s girlfriend sometime soon. I am sure we’ll have a lot of fun and his gf is very photogenic so it’ll make my job easier LOL.
If I ever do open up a photography business, I’m beginning to think that I need to open up shop in a bigger county/town. There are just way too many photographers around here in this little area. I honestly think that most people get started with photography because they think it’ll be easy money. It’s not. It’s a lot of work. It’s not just about taking the pictures (which can take at least a couple of hours), it’s also about editing them to make them look the way you want them to. That can take several hours to accomplish. But I love it though and no matter how many photographers continue cropping up around here, I’m still going to stick with it…
I really don’t like using this blog to vent about things, but I figured since I do pay for the domain and hosting here, I can use it for whatever I like.
I am just really tired of being used. I am tired of people only contacting me when they want something. That’s the only time they ever call/text. But I find it hard to say “no”. I know that if I do, they will probably get mad and stop talking to me. But hey, I’ve figured out, when people are angry with me, they don’t ask me for favors all the time. They pretty much don’t talk to me. So maybe that’s what I need to do. I just really hate to have people mad at me. I’m hesitant about putting details on here just in case they find this blog. I will just say that the person texts me at the last minute needing a favor. And I think they do that because they think I’ll feel obligated to do it if they make me think they have no one else to help them. It just makes me angry though. It makes me angry because they don’t consider that I may have things to do. I got a text tonight from the person and I have chosen to ignore it for now. If they needed my help that much, why not text me earlier tonight or even earlier today?
Maybe I should just make everyone mad at me so they will stop asking for stuff all the time. It would be nice not to get texts all the time from people who just want to use me.