It’s really disheartening when someone who used to claim to be your friend finds such pleasure in belittling you to anyone who will listen. I really don’t know what this person expects from me. Maybe she expected me to give up photography because she decided to pursue it. If that is her goal, she will never succeed. Why should I give up something I love just because she doesn’t want the competition. She’s even went so low as to talk negatively about me to her ex husband, who really doesn’t want any kind of dialogue with her, other than to talk about their daughter. I guess she is just desperate for someone to take her side. I guess people see past the manipulation after awhile. Have I talked about her? Sure, I have. To people I am close to, not people who can’t stand to be in the same room with me. But of course, the people I talked to are not surprised by her latest antics. They know how she is and I guess I just look like an idiot because I gave her another chance. However, this time, I’m truly done. I’m not saying I will never forgive her, but we will never be friends again. I can’t be friends with someone whose main goal is to bring me down. I hate having conflict with someone, but why should I spend energy on trying to keep her happy? She doesn’t care if she hurts me. I’m not going to waste my time trying to seek revenge, I just refuse to ever speak to her again.
Whenever I reflect on our friendship, I realize, she’s never been a true friend. She’s not happy unless she’s making someone else unhappy. I refuse to let her have that kind of power over me. I am not sure why I ever started speaking to her again. I had hoped she’d changed but I see now that she’s always going to be the same manipulative, vindictive person she’s always been.
From a business perspective, I would think that it would make your business look bad if you are constantly criticizing someone else’s skills. To say my skills “suck” is not only immature but I’ve had several other people tell me otherwise, people who have no reason to compliment me. There’s a reason I don’t charge for my services yet. I’m not competing with anyone but myself. If I ever feel my skills are up to par and I want to take on photography as a profession, I will. So I will end on this note: Go ahead and say what you want about me. You are only making yourself and your business look bad. People will eventually see the “real” you and I can guarantee they won’t like what they see.