frustration and lack of patience

There are so many times I have just thought about giving up on photography because I don’t think I’m good enough. I know that any skill takes awhile to perfect, but I just get so discouraged sometimes. This especially happens when I look at other’s photography facebook pages or websites. I see how awesome their photos look and I want mine to look just as good. It’s frustrating.
But what I have to keep telling myself is “You are improving and you’ll get there eventually.” I see so many people out there who are doing photography as a profession who really shouldn’t be. I don’t want to be that person. I want to be proud of my work. And of course, like most people, I am my worst critic. However, I can say that after looking at some of the photos I’ve taken over the past 10 years, I have greatly improved.

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my random homeschool post

I have learned a lot homeschooling my youngest. I learned that I love having him here. I love the fact I get to control his education. And the fact that my state doesn’t require standardized testing is also a plus. I pray that that law doesn’t change. My older two go to public school, by their choice. However, my daughter (she’s in the 6th grade) wants to homeschool next year. My oldest is in high school and I think he likes being around his friends, which is fine with me. My daughter has friends, but I think she’s a little envious that her little brother gets to stay home all day. However, I told her that she will have to do her school work and she’s not going to just sit on the computer all day. She will do her school work, and help me around the house. And of course, she’ll have time to do what she wants as long as she does her chores.

The public school my kids go to is actually a great one. But it’s still a public school so they are required to take standardized tests every year. I think it’s starts around the 3rd grade. The teachers spend most of the year stressing the importance of these tests and doing test prep. Yes, I realize the teachers are required to do this. I don’t think it really benefits the children though. The teachers put so much pressure on the kids to do well that they get stressed out. My oldest was never really that stressed, but my daughter gets extremely worried about the tests. So I guess I will start researching some affordable jr high homeschool curriculum. I may start out using Time4learning like I do with Trey and then supplement it with other stuff. The thing I love about homeschooling is that I don’t have to limit what or how they learn. Trey loves science so we look up things online or he finds documentaries on netflix about animals. He’s currently really into snakes and other reptiles. We also visit the science museum quite often. He reads and comprehends what he’s read very well. When he was 6, they tested his reading and he was on a 4th-5th grade level then. He is a very inquisitive child so he is always asking questions. Lately, he’s been asking me the definitions to random words LOL. He is also mildly interested in social studies. The only subject I struggle to get him to work on is math. But I’m going to order some math workbooks that someone recommended last week and see if that helps. He is ADHD and has a hard time focusing and so he needs a lot of one on one teaching. He just couldn’t get that in public school. He didn’t like going to school at all but when I say “It’s time to do your school work”, he just says “ok” and never argues with me. Even if we have to work on math 🙂 .

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My first attempt

at macrophotography. So I found a cheap nifty way to do macrophotography without dropping some serious moola on a new lens.  It’s not the easiest set up though and I really need to get a tripod (I have one but someone lost the camera mount plate to it).  It’s hard to get any decent shots holding my camera.  But here’s a couple I did manage to get.

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Just my perspective on something….

Photography has been my passion for a few years now. I started off with just a little point and shoot and then moved up to a DSLR. I am still learning. Actually I think that photography is one of those things where there’s always something new to learn. However, I’ve learned that photography is not just about pointing a camera and taking pictures. Anyone can do that. It’s about having a vision of what you want to capture. I constantly take pictures with my mind. Then if I have a chance, I get my camera and try to capture what I saw in my head. It’s a lot harder than it sounds.

Recently I’ve let my competitiveness get the best of me though. I kinda gave up on photography because so many people around here have opened up photography businesses so I thought “What’s the use?” I doubt I’ll open up a business but I have got to stop letting that get in the way of doing something I love and that I feel I’m good at. I’m looking at upgrading my camera and getting a new lens. I am supposed to be doing some senior pics for Jake’s girlfriend sometime soon. I am sure we’ll have a lot of fun and his gf is very photogenic so it’ll make my job easier LOL.

If I ever do open up a photography business, I’m beginning to think that I need to open up shop in a bigger county/town. There are just way too many photographers around here in this little area. I honestly think that most people get started with photography because they think it’ll be easy money. It’s not. It’s a lot of work. It’s not just about taking the pictures (which can take at least a couple of hours), it’s also about editing them to make them look the way you want them to. That can take several hours to accomplish. But I love it though and no matter how many photographers continue cropping up around here, I’m still going to stick with it…

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